Rainy Tuesday

Blew off SBM...he kept wanting to stay over though I told him he couldn't, so I felt very taken advantage of. So that’s done.
Haven’t heard from DB since our very nice evening last week. I knew I nick-named him DB for a reason.....
My neighbor and I are throwing a HUGE Halloween party Nov. 3. :) YAY!!!!
I was considering joining match.com, but taking the attitude my friends have taken...it’s just another way to meet all types of people, and I’m going to meet a lot of idiots first, some friends, some whackos, but ya never know? Right?? Still thinking about it.....

Mrs. Right Now

I know that to SBM, I am the affection, companionship and objective support that he needs...right now. Mrs....Right now.

To DB, I am the one that got away, his "DOH!" girl. The one that brought him a choice a year and a half ago, and he made the wrong one. And now, he wants to be a bachelor (I think??) and yet persues me. Mrs. "A-Year-ago-who-might-be-the-perfect-mrs.-right-now"

All so frustrating, but at least SBM wants to go out, go paintballing, go fishing with me, at least he can maybe be my MR. right now too.

...what else is new...

I know, I know, I talk way too much about dating, but it's just so much more fun to talk about than work, and those are the only two things I really have going on right now.

Last night I went to DB's house. He grilled chicken on the grill while I made the salad and while we both drank sam's oktoberfest (yuuummmmm). It was a beautiful night and we sat on his deck and jibbered while we ate. Talked a little about our past, how he couldn't believe he was still talking to me because of what he did two years ago (told me that he, basically, loved me...but was going to try to work things out with his LT girlfriend...who moved just this past May/June).

I forgave him, but at the same time, I need a fresh start. I'd like to get to know him instead of being just a long time aquantance.

So...after we cleaned up dinner, we stood on the deck and looked at the clear sky and stars for a while, and kissed. It was actually pretty perfect. I know I could have stayed longer and nothing would have really happened, but I left not long after that. My brain is still talking way louder than my heart on this one. And also, he needed to be told that last night counted as night #1...those nights when I was left under his false pretenses do NOT count as dates. FRESH start, plus....he's never had his time to be a bachelor...ever...and i'm just so tired of being Mrs. right now. I'd rather be left alone completely.

We'll see

crappy date, amazing vacation

So the date went pretty poorly, entirely due to the random, out of nowhere, off the wall comment "I'm not looking for a girlfriend." Did I say I was applying for the position?? Anyway, not worth wasting time expressing how many ways that frustrated me.

SBM is still...SBM. Haven't seen him, but surely will within the next few days.

Tonight...I'm going to spend time with DB, believe it or not, and i'm looking forward to seeing someone I've known for as long as him, yet have spent such little time with. We're going to eat pizza, drink beer and watch a movie, and I really can't think of anything else I'd rather do. (besides go back to the lake) which was AWESOME! I'm tan! a little bruised from all the outdoor activity that took place under the influence.
I'm a little bloated from all the beer and junkfood, but all in all, an incredible weekend with incredibly wonderful friends.

Maybe I'll blog more later about the weekend, it was great.